I think this blog is becoming redundant, cos it's always possible to look back on things you've said on Facebook as an indicator of what was happening in life. And although there's some things I wouldn't say on Facebook, the fact is I'm never going to remember everything that's happened in my life. I think I'm just gonna have to let that go and be happy in the moment. That's all you can do.
And speaking of being happy in the moment, this is a very good moment. The sun's out for once, and at around 2am this morning I handed in my last piece of coursework. What a wonderful feeling. Before that I had my performance on Wednesday. It went well in the end, but it nearly didn't go at all! Woke up with serious pain in my tailbone, could barely move. Turns out I have an infection caused by an ingrown hair or something. Not nice. I powered on through it though and we had a great night. Chris and Ruairidh did great as well. Ruairidh cried a bit at the end of his speech which was quite touching. It's different for him than me, this place has been his life for the past few years, it's gotta be tough saying goodbye after that. He's a talented guy though, there's plenty places he can go in life.
Before all that was the manic rush to finish my project before going to Newcastle for the weekend. I jsut about managed it, and handed my project in shortly after I got back. Wrote about 5000 words on the sight reading process and my work on tuned percussion. Quite proud of what I did. It's hardly groundbreaking but it should get me a decent mark.
Then there was Newcastle itself! We had a good laugh, and I missed it a lot afterward. Went a bit hard the Friday night though and were all feeling rough the Saturday. I stayed out again though, felt I should. How often do I get to get away? It was kinda hard though, I still have that war inside me that tells me I shouldn't be spending all my money and time clubbing and stuff when there are things I want so much more in life. But then you need that sort of camaraderie, and getting away from things gives you perspective. It makes me realise how much I want these other things. I also think I still need to loosen up around the guys a bit. I found that kinda hard cos there's a lot of abuse going back and forward and I'm not good at taking it. I need to remember that I care about those guys though, and not to take what they say to heart. They get on at me in fun, then I get on at them back and forget to just be nice sometimes. I had a great weekend with them and I should remember to appreciate them.
See now I feel like this blog does have a point. I said a lot of things there that I think I'll be glad to look back on. Whether or not I'll keep going though... We'll see. :)
