So I haven't posted in about a week, which means I'm gonna have to try and remember all that's gone on over the past week that's been of note. First I'll focus on the present - it snowed last night and used the snowfall as an excuse not to go to college. Bad Dave. Yes, I really should have gone, but then I only had one class - teaching class - and it would have meant driving in and back so I've at least saved some time and money on that. The other reason for going would have been to continue this essay on minimalism so now I'm tasked with trying to get as much done at home as I would have then - probably not gonna happen. Thankfully Chris has taken Josh out for a run, so I'm not having to work through his whining, poor lad. I do love that dog but I gotta crack on with work. After this post that is.
I had an interesting experience last night, not unlike the one you'll be having now. I went on my Twitter account which I haven't used in years (everyone seems to be getting in to it now) and was surprised to find I'd apparently made 141 tweets in my time. I didn't believe this cos I don't remember ever having really used Twitter, but it turns out I did, I think sometime between Bebo and Facebook. The posts were awful though. Most of them were aimed at (@) Claire (boo) and it was a total cringe. I hope you aren't thinking the same now! Probably are tbh. Ah well. I still like to think I've grown since then. Back then everything I wrote I wrote for other people, for image or whatever. Now what I write I write for me. Like this blog. Even if you're the only person that does ever read it that's good enough for me. That's how it should be really. It's for me and no one else.
So right now I'm listening to 'U Smile' by Justin Bieber. Apparently someone took the track and slowed it right down and pointed out the minimalist elements to it - that'll be going in the essay ha.
Other than that I got right into this series of I'm A Celebrity; it finished on Sat there. Charlie Brooks won but I thought Ashley from Pussy Cat Dolls deserved it a bit more. I know, I watch a load of shite. You probably do too!
Sat night was quite a big one for me in some ways. It was just a typical night out really, chatted to Dan in Spoons (he filled me in on all the scandal surrounding Laura Mooney and Johnny Cab ha), met the guys in Maisies then went to the Woody. Turns out there's such thing as 'December Licensing' which allows all pubs to be open til 1 - that was news to me. Course it meant the guys ditched me in the Woody to go back to Maisies - Ryan went cos he winched the barmaid last week and Marc followed suit cos that's what he does. I stayed and chatted to Kim and Rachel then Gav and Paul for a bit. It was a good night.
Anyway somewhere in between I came to a realisation. The sort I always knew deep down but hadn't really felt. All the things I want here - to spend time with my family and friends, to teach locally, to start a function band or whatever - these are all things I can do anytime. I could come back when I'm 30 and still do these things. But if I really want to make it as a singer-songwriter - and I do, as much as I find it hard to admit to others - then the time to act is now. Once I'm done with this degree I'm thinking I'm gonna go back to London. Most of what I want right now is there. Ryan said he's come with me but I doubt that'll happen. He's miss it too much here. But we'll see. I need to stop being afraid to admit what I want from the world. It's not gonna make a difference if I tell people I'm a singer-songwriter. If I write songs and sing them that's what I am. And that's what I want to be too. I mean, I'm different to a lot of singer-songwriters. I'm into a lot of different music, and being a drummer I've studied a lot of things irrelevant to that side of things but maybe that's a good thing. It could help give me identity, and that's important. Who knows what form my music will have taken if I spent a few years just playing? It may start out with just me on guitar but it could go anywhere from there in a place like London. One thing's for sure, it's about me from here. If I join a band playing someone else's music that's gonna play second fiddle and they're gonna know it. Cos Void Pleasantries, Coney, The Milk Bar - when I look at it none of them were doing anything I can't do myself. And yeah, my drumming helped them along cos I'm good at what I do, but musically I'm gonna do what I want to do.
Anyway I'm getting back to work. Other things to remember? Ally came round yesterday and we had another Take Me Out day ha. Always a laugh. Apparently he's broken up with Gillian though which is gutting. I like Gillian a lot but oh well. If it's meant to be it's meant to be. And I have a feeling it is but I could be wrong. You'll know won't you? Ha.
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